I fell out with one of my teenage best friend years ago and I still, to this day, hold a grudge, however I suspect she doesn’t even know about it or care!! So why do I?
I grew up in a fairly small village where you only mixed with other people from the village, none of us were old enough to drive, the bus would arrive once a day but not always come back so we were stuck. We all went to school together and all spent our spare time together.
As a teenager, my parents were really aware of how bored we were in the village so they set up a scout group for us and we all loved it. It gave us experiences and memories that we would have never not got anywhere else, but to offer us this group it took my parents time. They devoted time to us, they would pick us all up and take us off to do things like den building, archery and shooting amongst a whole load of other things.
So when one of my best friends, slagged off and was really rude about my parents, I instantly took it to heart. I couldn’t forgive her. At the time, it broke my heart and I actually cut her from my life. I felt I didn’t need that. My parents had done everything for me and my brother and the fact they weren’t appreciated for their efforts was devastating.
She often tried to make contact when our lives would cross but I kept myself away her. I didn’t need her; however she always smiled and waved and made an effort.
Over the years, my life moved on and I moved out of the village, I grew up but whenever I see her I remember that I can’t forgive her, however I can’t actually remember what was said!! Lol It is ridiculous!! Why can I not get over it?
I recently mentioned it to some friends whilst out for a few drinks and they laughed at me and I felt even more ridiculous but I thought about it when I got home and I still don’t think I can get over it, I just can’t forgive her.
Surely I can’t be the only one who has held a long term grudge and still can’t actually remember what was said!!
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